End of 2010

End of 2010

Salam.

2010 is near to its end. Unlike most people, I open and close my book on my birthday, July 18 every year. So, the beginning of a year like 2011 will be a mark to the second part of my book, where I reevaluate stuff and redesign my goals, because although I've set plans in my head, the plan usually went under the rug forgotten and left to rot.

 

So anyway, for every new year you just have to look back about how the world has treated you. Things you regret, things you've lost, things that have left you, things that made you feel special, things that show you that some glimmer of hope is there shining too brightly for you and your love, things that changed the world, and how you wish the new year will treat you.

It may seems ridiculous to some of us to forsee this kind of stuff, but this is how you appreciate time. Time is the only thing that we have to have some control on our own lives. If we lose time, we will lose everything else.

This is just me saying. Anyway, the beginning of 2010 was extremely excellent, but near the end it kind of sucked. Sucked to me personally, nationally and nternationally that made you say, ' what kind of viral stupidity has been infecting the world?' Why nationally? Bila Malaysia tangkap orang Syiah  macam syiah ni sejenis cult yang puja setan, bila keluar khabar-khabar angin yang sangat tak sesuai untuk orang-orang yang berpangkat menteri Malaysia, bila basically Malaysian politics is going deeper up his asshole. Why internationally? When a 100% Muslim country spent million of dollars to decorate a Christmas tree (read here). You don't even have rain, you dumbasses. So TIGA harapan utama aku untuk 2011 adalah :

1. Supaya dapat at least Jayyid dalam finals Sem 5 dan Sem 6.
2. Supaya dapat kumpul duit untuk Winter 2012.
3. Supaya aku jumpa balik member baik aku yang 'hilang'.

InsyaAllah Kheir!

Kerja tanpa Habuan

Kerja tanpa Habuan

Salam.

Kenapa nak kerja penat-penat tapi in the end tak dapat apa-apa? Habis duit, habis masa, habis tenaga untuk sesuatu yang tak benefit dekat diri sendiri. Kita penat-penat  syok sendiri tapi orang lain dapat hasil. I could leave anytime I want because I can, and there's nothing they can do to stop me. And believe me, they need me more than I need them.

Even so, itu bukan isunya. Seronok buat kerja bila dapat tengok hasilnya depan mata. Suddenly all the money, time and energy spent apparently for nothing were worthed after all. Even kalau orang tak nampak hasil kerja kita, sampai ada orang boleh kata aku tak buat kerja, (nak saja lempang, kau tak tahu apa-apa kau nak komen lebih-lebih) itu bukan yang kita cari : untuk dilambung tinggi sebab menyibukkan diri.

Anyway, be sincere in whatever you do. When you know that nobody sees what you've done, the beautiful ending will be there waiting for us who worked our asses off because we earned it, fair and square.

Finally, remember : discipline is of utter importance here. Yes I've lost abundance of time, but I do have a great deal left ready for use. InsyaAllah kheir, insyaAllah score finals because years ago, a British physician once said that the radio has no future, well we've proved him wrong.

I guess nothing is impossible with some hard work and discipline. 

p/s : Congrats Malaysia! A 3-nil win against Indonesia :)

The New Macho

The New Macho

The New Macho

He cleans up after himself.
He cleans up the planet.
He is a role model for young men.
He is rigorously honest and fiercely optimistic.

He holds himself accountable.
He knows what he feels.
He knows how to cry and he lets it go.
He knows how to rage without hurting others.
He knows how to fear and how to keep moving.
He seeks self-mastery.

He's let go of childish shame.
He feels guilty when he's done something wrong.
He is kind to men, kind to women, kind to children.
He teaches others how to be kind.
He says he's sorry.

He stopped blaming women or his parents or men for his pain years ago.
He stopped letting his defenses ruin his relationships.
He stopped letting his penis run his life.
He has enough self respect to tell the truth.
He creates intimacy and trust with his actions.
He has men that he trusts and that he turns to for support.
He knows how to roll with it.
He knows how to make it happen.
He is disciplined when he needs to be.
He is flexible when he needs to be.
He knows how to listen from the core of his being.

He's not afraid to get dirty.
He's ready to confront his own limitations.
He has high expectations for himself and for those he connects with.
He looks for ways to serve others.
He knows he is an individual.
He knows that we are all one.
He knows he is an animal and a part of nature.
He knows his spirit and his connection to something greater.

He knows that the future generations are watching his actions.
He builds communities where people are respected and valued.
He takes responsibility for himself and is also willing to be his brother's keeper.

He knows his higher purpose.
He loves with fierceness.
He laughs with abandon, because he gets the joke.

- Boysen Hodgson

Credit to Shukri Basiron :)

Sungguh sampah

Sungguh sampah

Salam

They say that small-minded people discuss other people. 'Small-minded' a polite way to say 'dumb'. Yet how is it one would not talk about other people when people are all around us?

Maybe to discuss other people has different meaning to you and I. The people around you defines who you are. Your friends are the summary to your personality. They empower you to step up and become more than average. Most importantly, those around you are indirectly your teachers.

You learn from those around you. Such as, when I myself see this one person going through one of the most devious challenge of life itself, and for the better part of it he came through as strong and proud, as if nothing has changed at all, it made me think that what I am going through personally is total garbage.

Al-fatihah untuk arwah ayah beliau.

Congrats MMMC

Congrats MMMC

Salam.

When the nose starts to soksek-soksek, when the saratoga has suddenly become this seven-ton comfort hugging you from performing fajr in the morning, when you cannot leave the house with a short-sleeve anymore.

That means one thing for most people in this part of the world : Brace yourself people, Winter is here. You will eat more, go out less, thus gain more weight. Plus logic dictates that the body will crave more food to produce heat through metabolism or something and convert some of those carbs to fat, for insulation purposes, and the fact that the stove is a nice place to be near at during this time of the year doesn't really help with the losing-weight part. Yeah.

The good thing is that the day is shorter, so puasalah selambak-lambaknya, malam yang panjang sibukkan dengan qiam, tahajjud. Sekiranya mereka faham, kata Tuhan kan?

Sekiranya mereka faham.

So let's go back to Egypt. Unlike Malaysian universities, we don't have a lot of extra-corricular activities going on. Unless if you count those afternoon futsal games as one, well, good for you. We don't have societies, organizations and clubs to participate in, mostly because the locals are only interested in football and singing their kind of music.

And most importantly, we fall short when it comes to the language barrier. Yeah our arabic suck.

So some of us form clubs for our own benefit ranging from Anatomy Club to Japanese Club to the Rugby team, which from what I could see are to be more effective than what our counterparts have back in Malaysia, even if there is no tournament we could participate in to be declared the best nationally, we join the said clubs because we are interested to explore new things, not for some merital bullshit. We join for fun (in a healthy sharia way)!

And here's the thing, Malaysian students have been studying here since the last at least 40 years, and this is the first move where the students organize stuff like this. We may have the student organization ever since but no more than that, and today we have a whooping 10-20 clubs to join, and more to come for sure. Religious class has been around ever since of course, this is Egypt. Oh yeah, this is all happening in Mansoura since the two months of the establishment of MMMC (Triple-M C).

So to MMMC, congrats! You've done the impossible. You've proven to all that a lot of paperworks and formality don't always work. If you have the guts to do it, then do it, asalkan pegangan agama jangan dilupa dan batas dijaga.

Egypt has help me grow a lot, hasn't she? Haha bosan entry ni.

Karangan?

Karangan?

Salam.

Teringat zaman sekolah dulu time kelas Bahasa. Every once in a while the cikgu will give homework to do either rumusan, ringkasan or a simple 200++ karangan. I remembered how a torture every Bahasa class was, I was never a fan of the language eventhough I was born technically Malay. Even today I still prefer to write in English, which of course you may have noticed that this was not a language I proficient in either.

So anyway, the worst part of doing a karangan was when the title given was simply a dead-ass boring one. Karangan was where my menggoreng skills become uttermost useful yeah baby. So in the end, even after 20 years of using Bahasa as my first language, I am sad to say that I suck bad. Real bad, actually. I simply just didn't read and write enough, I guess. 

I blame the TV, they made Bahasa sound extremely lame :P

That was three years ago. That was when someone had the power over me to push me to write about something I have never considered to take space in my thoughts before. That was when I could pull off a three pages of 'kesan gejala sosial kepada masyarakat' in less than two hours. I used to loathe it back then, but today I kind of missed it. I missed the time when I was given a thought-provoking topic leaving me wondering to the endless possibilities of how I could solve a problem if given the opportunity. Well yeah I guess I'm just being optimistic.

Even if I was forced to do it unwillingly, what made it bearable was the thought that they made me think outside the box. They made me cross the borderline where I need to think about something else beside myself, and most importantly, they made me think.

Today, I am lost without words. Hundreds of times I tried to write something in this blog that only ended up with me leaving the page blank still after three hours especially bila ada orang kutuk blog ni boring haha. So, it comes down to this, it is very hard to think about something beside our petty problems.  By the way it is very ironic how as we grow older and supposably wiser, and as we started to mingle with society, we stop to appreciate the wondrous diversity coexisting around us and started condemning each other.

Dulu, orang bagi tajuk kerja kita berfikir. Sekarang kerja kita cari tajuk dan fikir. So, solusinya adalah banyakkan membaca dan timbulkan minat kepada sesuatu supaya otak terus terisi. Dunia terlalu sibuk untuk kita terus khayal dalam dunia sendiri.

Sekarang sedang membaca :  The 30 Principles of Moderate & Balanced Thought via Suhaibwebb.com :D