Ten hours from now will be the mid-sem exam. Truthfully, I am not ready,nor I will ever be. The mind of this body is so messed up it decided not to take everything seriously. So from time to time I found out that I'm missing a huge bunch of pieces in my collection of medical knowledge. Pfft.
Although I am not ready, I am not studying. The mood has gone, and the mind is rejecting any new information for tonight. Allah, I'm so going to screw up on this exam. Hurmmm.
Why do I study though?
ONE. To gain Allah's blessings.
TWO. To get Mumtaz, insyaAllah.
THREE. To be a doctor.
FOUR. To excel in something for once.
FIVE. It's fun! Hell yeah~
SIX. For the sake of knowledge itself.
I present myself this time as someone who begs for your blessings. I know I did not do much in the pass, I know I have done so much wrong. I am weak, I am stupid.
I have no right to be what I am today without You.
I am not wishing for a miracle, I am wishing for the best for me, yet I am also wishing for the best that doesn't hurt.
please make this heart strong, please make this mind clear for tomorrow's exam.
please make me strong to overcome anything that might be holding me back, anything that may upset me for any reason.
Please, if possible, give me the best result for this exam.
I am a sinner, but I am Your humble servant.
I am doing all I can to be a better man.