31 May 2008
17 May 2008
Malam ini aku dapat maklumat baru. Maklumat tentang kelas 'kesayangan' aku, al-Kindi '07. Sebelum tu aku mahu menyingkap semula kenangan kami bersama. Ya,kelas kami bukan kelas terbaik, tetapi kelasku tetap kelasku. Ada baik, ada buruk. Yang baik memang banyak.
Akhir tahun 2006, senarai ahli kelas bagi tahun 2007 telah ditampal. Seperti yang disyorkan oleh Cikgu Mariah, aku masuk kelas 503. Yang pertama menerima aku adalah Palek.
"Kau masuk kelas 3 balik ehh?? kehkehkeh,"
Sengal. Aku tengah sedih dia boleh gelak. Aku sepakk kau.
Pada tahun 2007, hari pertama ke KISAS. Aku ke kelas agak lambat sikit, dan bila aku sampai, semua sudah ada. Dengan Sein tersengih-sengih dapat kelas baru. Konon happy-lah tu. Disebabkan aku sampai lambat, meja kosong yang tinggal betul-betul depan meja cikgu. Sejak aku darjah 1 tak pernah aku duduk depan cikgu. Sampai hati korang ekk.
Aku duduk sebelah Fikri Nazari. Cakap Penang dengan aku. Mana aku paham? Tapi tak apa. Mungkin ada hikmahnya. Aku pun tak tahu apa hikmahnya. Sebab bulan 4 kut, Acad tukar tempat dengan aku.Aku duduk belakang sekali. Sebelah FaizRoshdi.
Bila aku masuk kelas, budak2 ni suruh aku jadi ketua kelas. Sengal betul. Aku dahla belum habis berkabung lagi. Masa pilihanraya kelas, hampir-hampir aku jadi. Nasib baik Muslimat bangkang. Yelah, mana mereka kenal aku.
Harizbahu jadi ketua kelas, aku pula jadi bendahari. Palek jadi s/u. Apa kerja dia aku pun tak tahu.
Maka aku pun mula menerima kelas baruku. Sein tak habis-habis memuji kelas baru. Tak habis-habis gelak-gelak dengan Harizbahu dan Palek. Kadang-kadang aku naik menyampah. Gelak rilek-rilek sudahlah.
Yup. Mula-mula masuk kelas baru memang aku tak seronok. Tapi aku belajar menyesuaikan diri. Mereka menerimaku dengan baik sekali [chewah]. Kami gaduh, kami berbaik. Kami bertengkar, kami maafkan. Kami gelak, kami sedih. Tapi pengalaman bersama mereka memang tak boleh aku lupakan.
Fikri Nazari, yang penyabar [gile] walaupun ramai 'anti' dia, padahal aku tak pernah ada masalah dengan dia; Sirhan dan Pa'an, pendiam, maka aku hanya boleh katakan yang diorang ni sebaik-baik sahabat; Anas, exco mantap, yang sangat cool dan flexible; Sein, budak STAR 503; Ali, erm, baik betul dengan aku; AcapRahim, poyo jek budak ni, but never judge him by his appearence!, HarizBahu, yang selalu buat lawak tak jadi, kesian kau jadi mangsa kutukan kitorang; Acad, sengal-sengal budak ni, tapi SPM takdelah teruk mana; Palek; yang konon-konon paling berpengaruh dalam kelas; dan FaizRoshdi, yang serius je, hasilnya seorang manusia yang berjaya insyaAllah.
Kelas 503 memang banyak masalah. Nak-nak bila setengah tahun yang terakhir. Masa awal tahun kelas 503 menjadi terkenal dengan kes FI [korang fahamkan?]. Lepas tu tak ada apa yang istimewa, sampailah bulan 3. Bila Mr Anuar jadi pemurah [gile] sampai kertas English aku jadi kontroversi. Teutama dalam Panitia BI. Glamourlah aku sekejap. Ingat lagi Cikgu Rosnita cakap "awak dengan abang awak same je, English boleh score, Bm tak boleh score!"
Maka kertas aku jadi hot sekejap. Ramai cikgu nak tengok, ada yang tak setuju, ada yang diam je. Personally, aku pun rasa yang aku tak layak dapat markah setinggi tu. Aku confront sendiri Mr Anuar. Kenapa bagi aku markah tinggi sangat? Sedangkan ada teacher seorang lagi [huhu] merasakan markah essay yang layak aku dapat hanya 20 lebih je. Bukan 45 macam yang Mr Anuar bagi. Punya drop self confidence aku. Dia kata dia tanda ikut standard SPM,tahu-tahulah standard English KISAS ni tinggi; dan geng Mr Anuar, Madam Hema, pon turut memberi semangat.
Aku pun biarkan, Lantaklah. Malas aku nak fikir. Tapi aku ambil keputusan itu sebagai Confidence booster. Kemudian, later that year, Madam Rohazila pon dah tahu [Hoi 501, yang kamu bagitahu kenapa? Adoii]. Dia bagi semangat baekk punya. Tak sangka betul dia jumpa aku personally.
Dalam bulan 6, kelas aku terkena masalah lagi. Kali ni berkaitan dengan ukhuwah kami yang longgar. Bermula dengan seorang, yang bukan apa pun, cuma agak depressed; tapi alhamdulillah, kami bersama-sama menyelesaikan masalah. Siap buat meeting dekat Musolla lagi.
Kemudian kes conteng meja! Kesian HidyahMin, meja dia kena conteng pakai highlighter [yang senang padam]. Ya, aku faham kalau dia marah. Dan aku [yang terlibat] bersama Ali dah pun minta maaf kan? Kenapa masih dibesar-besarkan? Kan aku dah terangkan dalam mesyuarat kelas yang contengan tu tak bermaksud apa-apa pun?
Haha! Kenangan terindah, tak mungkin aku lupakan. Hari ini masing-masing sudah melangkah ke dunia baru. Ke dunia siswa. Bukan lagi zaman sekolah
Sein . Asilah
AcapRahim . Aziani . Rahmah
FaizRoshdi . Ainul Arifah
Prastanta . Palek . Acad . Anas . Izyan . Muhsonat
FikriNazari . Syahidah . Izyani
HarizBahu . Sirhan . Dhiana . Nabilah . Hidayah
Pa'an . Ain . Adawiah
Ali . Masyitah . FarahDina
Jangan tengok yang lepas. Pandang yang depan dan maju, terus maju. Moga ukhuwah kita tak mempunyai tarikh luput. Ahaks.
11 May 2008
Hari ini, berbekalkan usaha, doa dan tawakkal kita menuju ke satu jalan yang mengandungi cabaran yang tak dapat kita duga. Hanya yang tabah hati akan berjaya.
Hari ini kita mulakan hidup baru, bagi menebus dosa lalu yang menimbun-nimbun. Kita sekali lagi menjulurkan kaki ke dunia dewasa yang gagal kita tempuhi pada masa lalu. Hanya yang tulus akan berjaya.
Hari ini Allah memberi kita satu lagi peluang, supaya kita dapat membuktikan kepada diri sendiri yang kita mampu. Agar kita dapat mengorek potensi diri menjadikan diri lebih baik dari yang semalam. Hanya yang ber semangat jitu akan berjaya.
Hari ini kita menetapkan hala tuju hidup, yang akan kita tempuhi mungkin 40 tahun dari saat ini, jika didizinkan. Hanya yang ikhlas hatinya akan berjaya.
Hari ini kita buang ragu yang bersarang di dalam hati, kerana pada detik kita menjulurkan hati, kita tak akan lagi sesekali pandang ke belakang. Janji kita pada diri. Hanya yang benar akan berjaya.
Yang berkuasa ke atas segala sesuatu yang telah, sedang dan akan terjadi
Kami mohon berkat-Mu agar apa yang kami lakukan bukan atas sebab-sebab duniawi,
Tapi hanya untuk menuntut redha-Mu
Ya Allah ya tuhan kami,
Kau tetapkanlah hati kami, agar tidak timbul rasa ragu
Agar tidak muncul rasa bosan
Agar apa yang kami lakukan benar-benar atas nama-Mu
Ya Allah Ya tuhan kami,
Ampunilah dosa-dosa kami, yang besar atau kecil
Yang sengaja atau di belakang mata
Agar hati ini senantiasa bersih suci.
11 Mei 2008.
06 May 2008
It is a known fact that every language has one or more terms that are used in reference to God and sometimes to lesser deities. This is not the case with Allah. Allah is the personal name of the One true God. Nothing else can be called Allah. The term has no plural or gender. This shows its uniqueness when compared with the word "god," which can be made plural, as in "gods," or made feminine, as in "goddess." It is interesting to notice that Allah is the personal name of God in Aramaic, the language of Jesus and a sister language of Arabic.
The One true God is a reflection of the unique concept that Islam associates with God. To a Muslim, Allah is the Almighty Creator and Sustainer of the universe, Who is similar to nothing, and nothing is comparable to Him. The Prophet Muhammad was asked by his contemporaries about Allah; the answer came directly from God Himself in the form of a short chapter of the Qur'an, which is considered to be the essence of the unity or the motto of monotheism. This is chapter 112, which reads:“ In the name of Allah, the Merciful, the Compassionate. Say (O Muhammad), He is God, the One God, the Everlasting Refuge, who has not begotten, nor has been begotten, and equal to Him is not anyone”.
Some non-Muslims allege that God in Islam is a stern and cruel God who demands to be obeyed fully and is not loving and kind. Nothing could be farther from the truth than this allegation. It is enough to know that, with the exception of one, each of the 114 chapters of the Qur'an begins with the verse " In the name of God, the Merciful, the Compassionate". In one of the sayings of Prophet Muhammad (PBUH), we are told that,
“ God is more loving and kind than a mother to her dear child”. On the other hand, God is also Just. Hence, evildoers and sinners must have their share of punishment, and the virtuous must have God's bounties and favors. Actually, God's attribute of Mercy has full manifestation in His attribute of Justice. People suffering throughout their lives for His sake should not receive similar treatment from their Lord as people who oppress and exploit others their whole lives. Expecting similar treatment for them would amount to negating the very belief in the accountability of man in the Hereafter and thereby negate all the incentives for a moral and virtuous life in this world. The following Qur'anic verses are very clear and straightforward in this respect.
''Verily, for the Righteous are gardens of Delight, in the Presence of their Lord. Shall We then treat the people of Faith like the people of Sin? What is the matter with you? How judge you?''
Islam rejects characterizing God in any human form or depicting Him as favoring certain individuals or nations on the basis of wealth, power or race. He created the human-beings as equals. They may distinguish themselves and get His favor through virtue and piety only.
The concepts that God rested on the seventh day of creation, that God wrestled with one of His soldiers, that God is an envious plotter against mankind, and that God is incarnate in any human being are considered blasphemy from the Islamic point of view.
The unique usage of Allah as a personal name of God is a reflection of Islam's emphasis on the purity of the belief in God that is the essence of the message of all God's messengers. Because of this, Islam considers associating any deity or personality with God as a deadly sin that God will never forgive, despite the fact that He may forgive all other sins.
The Creator must be of a different nature from the things created because if He is of the same nature as they are, He will be temporal and will therefore need a maker. It follows that nothing is like Him. If the maker is not temporal, then he must be eternal. But if he is eternal, he cannot be caused, and if nothing caused Him to come into existence, nothing outside Him causes Him to continue to exist, which means that he must be self-sufficient. And if He does not depend on anything for the continuance of His own existence, then this existence can have no end. The Creator is therefore eternal and everlasting: "He is the First and the Last".
He is Self-sufficient or Self-subsistent, or, to use a Qur'anic term, Al-Qayyum The Creator does not create only in the sense of bringing things into being, He. also preserves them and takes them out of existence and is the ultimate cause of whatever happens to them.
“ God is the Creator of everything. He is the guardian over everything. Unto Him belong the keys of the heavens and the earth” (39:62-63).
“ No creature is there crawling on the earth, but its provision rests on God. He knows its lodging place and its repository” (11:16).
“ And why, were there gods in earth and heaven other than God, they (heaven and earth) would surely go to ruin” (21:22). If the Creator is Eternal and Everlasting, then His attributes must also be eternal and everlasting. He should not lose any of His attributes nor acquire new ones. If this is so, then his attributes are absolute. Can there be more than one Creator with such absolute attributes? Can there be, for example, two absolutely powerful Creators? A moment's thought shows that this is not feasible. The Qur'an summarizes this argument in the following verses:
“ God has not taken to Himself any son, nor is there any god with Him: for then each god would have taken of that which he created and some of them would have risen up over others” (23:91).
“ And why, were there gods in earth and heaven other than God, they (heaven and earth) would surely go to ruin” (21:22).
The Qur'an reminds us of the falsity of all alleged gods. To the worshippers of man-made objects it asks:
“ Do you worship what you have carved yourself” (37:95).
“ Or have you taken unto yourself others beside Him to be your protectors, even such as have no power either for good or for harm to themselves” (13:16). To the worshippers of heavenly bodies it cites the story of Abraham:
“ When night outspread over him, he saw a star and said: This is my Lord. But when it set, he said: I love not the setters. When he saw the moon rising, he said: This is my Lord. But when it set, he said: If my Lord does not guide me, I shall surely be of the people gone astray. When he saw the sun rising, he said: This is my Lord; this is greater. But when it set, he said: O my people, surely I quit that which you associate, I have turned my face to Him who originated the heavens and the earth; a man of pure faith, I am not one of the idolators” (6:76-79).
In order to be a Muslim, that is, to surrender oneself to God, it is necessary to believe in the oneness of God, in the sense of His being the only Creator, Preserver, Nourisher, etc. But this belief, later called Tawhid Ar-Rububiyyah, is not enough. Many of the idolators knew and believed that only the Supreme God could do all this. But this was not enough to make them Muslims. To tawhid ar-rububiyyah, one must add tawhid al-'uluhiyyah. That is, one acknowledges the fact that it is God alone who deserves to be worshipped, and thus abstains from worshipping any other thing or being.
Having achieved this knowledge of the one true God, man should constantly have faith in Him, and should allow nothing to induce him to deny truth.
When faith enters a person's heart, it causes certain mental states that result in certain actions. Taken together, these mental states and actions are the proof for the true faith. The Prophet said:
“ Faith is that which resides firmly in the heart and which is proved by deeds”.Foremost among those mental stated is the feeling of gratitude towards God, which could be said to be the essence of ibada (worship).
The feeling of gratitude is so important that a non-believer is called 'kafir', which means 'one who denies a truth' and also 'one who is ungrateful'.
A believer loves, and is grateful to God for the bounties He bestowed upon him, but being aware of the fact that his good deeds, whether mental or physical, are far from being commensurate with Divine favors, he is always anxious lest God should punish him, here or in the Hereafter. He, therefore, fears Him, surrenders himself to Him and serves Him with great humility. One cannot be in such a mental state without being almost all the time mindful of God. Remembering God is thus the life force of faith, without which it fades and withers away.
The Qur'an tries to promote this feeling of gratitude by repeating the attributes of God very frequently. We find most of these attributes mentioned together in the following verses of the Qur'an:“
He is God; there is no god but He. He is the Knower of the unseen and the visible; He is the All-Merciful, the All-Compassionate. He is God; there is no god but He. He is the King, the All-Holy, the All-Peace, the Guardian of the Faith, the All-Preserver, the All-Mighty, the All-Compeller, the All-Sublime. Glory be to God, above that they associate! He is God, the Creator, the Maker, the Shaper. To Him belong the Names Most Beautiful. All that is in the heavens and the earth magnifies Him; He is the Almighty, the All-Wise” (59:22-24).
“ There is no god but He, the Living, the Everlasting. Slumber seizes Him not, nor sleep. To Him belongs all that is in the heavens and the earth. Who is there that shall intercede with Him save by His leave? He knows what lies before them, and what is after them, and they comprehend not anything of His knowledge save such as He wills. His throne comprises the heavens and earth. The preserving of them oppresses Him not; He is the All-High, the All-Glorious” (2:255).People of the Book, go not beyond the bounds in your religion, and say not as to God but the truth.
“ The Messiah, Jesus, son of Mary, was only the Messenger of God, and His Word that He committed to Mary, and a Spirit from Him. So believe in God and His Messengers, and say not "Three". Refrain; better it is for you. God is only one God. Glory be to Him -- (He is) above having a son” (4:171).
02 May 2008
March 22nd 2006. It was a Wednesday. Today was the day I came to KISAS, as a student. This was the first time I went to a boarding school, and I had to admit, the oncoming experience was thrilling. I remembered meeting with Afiq Hodori, my one year senior in my previous school. I remembered sitting beside this tall, skinny guy who I later found out was Afifi. It was one tiring day, and I couldn't wait to go into my room.
A 306 was my first room. Sadly to say that my roommates were all fifth formers. They were
- This quiet, dark Kedahans
- This brilliant guy who turned out to be a little bit of a f@g, and
- He was one of the RESTU crew, and a really nice guy.
My first class was 4 Sc 3. With me were Hakim, Palek, Wafiy and Hanif Aziz. My first impression on the class was boring, and I found most of the original members of the class [the first intakes] were arrogant and unfriendly. I remembered talking behind their backs with Hanif Aziz. We loathed the class. Later I was tranferred to another class, after sitting in an evaluation test. Hakim and I were placed in 4 Sc 1, the elite class. Seriously, I did not know what the hell made me brilliant enough to be in the class. And Hanif Aziz went to 4/11. I really missed cursing the 4 Sc 3 members with him. Good times; good times.
In 4 Sc 1, I met with the finest people in my life. Khairul Shazwan, the quiet brilliant who had be the first one to welcome me; Hafizi, the bossy [sorry Fizi] misunderstood class leader; Sein, who were quiet, I never thought he would be the one which I could be comfortable with the first time I met him; Faqih, he is weird, but in a good way, Akmal Hayat, another brilliant who sat beside me later that year; Azzam, a little annoying, still, he is an amazing debater, which made me respect him so much more, Zul Aiman, one of my closest friend in KISAS [an impressive singer]; Nazrin, he was the last person I would consider brilliant in the class[apart from myself], but he got 12A 1 in SPM; Rahman, the matured one in the class; Hakim, yet another brilliant and excellent in football; and Izzat Naqib, he was the one who did not afraid to speak what he thinks was inappropriate.
From the 12 of us, 9 got 12 As in SPM, with me being the lowest in the class.
I remembered when I first arrived at the school, it was English Language week. I entered a contest called Transl8 it!, which was very easy, if you watched a lot of American shows. Apparently, it was easy enough for me to win the first prize! This made me being labeled as an English expert among my fellow cassmates, which I am not.
They are the finest people indeed. Although I was not as smart as most of them, they never looked down at me, or at least never show it in front of me.They marked me as an equal, and they taught me a lot. Khairul Shazwan, although we were like heaven and hell, somehow we grew close. He never made me feel weak, instead he made me feel like I was his equal.
There were many things that made KISAS differ from any other school. There were the tazkirahs by the fifth formers; I remembered teasing the Muzakkirs behind their backs [didn't we all], the Liqa' Muhasabah [scary stuffs, man; scary stuffs]; MANIS [MANIS 2006 was boring]; the usrahs and of course, the Taaruf!
I remembered skipped the last taaruf test by joining the Backdrop Club. It was not like I would fail it, but I just think it was a waste of time. I knew I would pass, so what's the fuss about?
All good memories, none can be tainted even by my crappy test results! Later that year, Sein and I was kicked out of the class, and entered 5 Sc 3 again! Oh, the irony.